FINALLY ON T!

Whew! Lots to update everyone on! First of all. I got my name change on May 18th. I am now officially Aiden Jareth Campbell. Then, I finally got married to my long-time fiancee on July 17th. She and I also have both renounced our claim to Christianity, in favor of Paganism. I also finally got my prescription for Testosterone. I had my first T shot on July 25th!

Yet another new name....

I watched labyrinth again a few nights ago. It got me thinking. The main male character's name is Jareth. I love the character, and the name, and the actor. So I have decided I am going to change my middle name from Justice to Jareth. Now I will be Aiden Jareth Campbell. But I reserve the right to switch it around again. I like the name enough that I might just go by Jareth now. I have already started doing so on some games.

T Time!

I have been using an over the counter Testosterone cream I bought from Hi-Health for a little over a month. So far it seems to be working. My voice is deepening, my Adam's apple is growing, & I am getting more facial hair. I have noticed some side effects, though. My throat hurts and I have dry mouth alot, mainly from my vocal cords thickening and whatnot. I have noticed a little more hair in my sideburns area. Its like peach fuzz though, so it's hard to see. Anyway, that's all for now. Please enjoy this recent pic! And a link to said cream!

Infertility

I wish people would understand how much it hurts to be infertile. It hurts that they rub their fertility(kids) in my face. And to make matters worse, my mom keeps complaining about not having grandkids....WTF?! COMPLAIN TO MY BROTHER, NOT ME. HE'S THE ONE WHO GOT A VASECTOMY! IT'S NOT MY FAULT I'M INFERTILE!

Never Good Enough!

I feel like shit. It seems I can never do anything right. I can't get a job, I can't please my family and/or friends, and I can't even pleasure my fiance. I hate times like this. I feel worthless. Like a waste of air and skin. I can never truly be myself either. No matter what, I will always be a FEMALE. I hate it. There is nothing I can do that will ever truly change it either. I will never be a "Real" man. It just sucks. If there really is a god and he never makes mistakes, why are there so many others out there like me? It doesn't make sense. I mean, why would he want his children to go through such pain and hurt and utter despair? It just doesnt make sense. Maybe "HE" really is just a figment of our imaginations. Or maybe I'm just upset and looking for someone to blame. Either way, It's just not right....

Fanfiction

I have been writing a fanfiction about one of my favorite gay musicians and a transman. If you must know, said musician is Adam Lambert. Yes, I am a Glambert! I am also planning on writing a few other fanfics, also about musicians. If you like erotic fanfiction, feel free to check it out!

Passing as male!

Twice in the past 2 days I have been referred to with male pronouns. It made me feel awesome. Keep in mind how I dress though. I wear ripped jeans, a studded skull belt, chain wallet, binder, packer, baseball caps, and a cuff watch most times. The past 2 days I also wore a sleeveless tee. So that might have contributed to my passing. But last night when I took my dog to a free housebreaking seminar at petco, a guy (also named Andy, ironically) referred to me as "He/Him" a few times. And today, at DES, while trying to get my food stamps straightened out, A lady referred to me as "Him" to her son. It made me feel really good. Just thought I would share that with you guys.

P.S. What makes this more amazing is I have a somewhat high voice naturally. Don't believe me? Here is a link to my youtube!