Never Good Enough!

I feel like shit. It seems I can never do anything right. I can't get a job, I can't please my family and/or friends, and I can't even pleasure my fiance. I hate times like this. I feel worthless. Like a waste of air and skin. I can never truly be myself either. No matter what, I will always be a FEMALE. I hate it. There is nothing I can do that will ever truly change it either. I will never be a "Real" man. It just sucks. If there really is a god and he never makes mistakes, why are there so many others out there like me? It doesn't make sense. I mean, why would he want his children to go through such pain and hurt and utter despair? It just doesnt make sense. Maybe "HE" really is just a figment of our imaginations. Or maybe I'm just upset and looking for someone to blame. Either way, It's just not right....

Fanfiction

I have been writing a fanfiction about one of my favorite gay musicians and a transman. If you must know, said musician is Adam Lambert. Yes, I am a Glambert! I am also planning on writing a few other fanfics, also about musicians. If you like erotic fanfiction, feel free to check it out!

Passing as male!

Twice in the past 2 days I have been referred to with male pronouns. It made me feel awesome. Keep in mind how I dress though. I wear ripped jeans, a studded skull belt, chain wallet, binder, packer, baseball caps, and a cuff watch most times. The past 2 days I also wore a sleeveless tee. So that might have contributed to my passing. But last night when I took my dog to a free housebreaking seminar at petco, a guy (also named Andy, ironically) referred to me as "He/Him" a few times. And today, at DES, while trying to get my food stamps straightened out, A lady referred to me as "Him" to her son. It made me feel really good. Just thought I would share that with you guys.

P.S. What makes this more amazing is I have a somewhat high voice naturally. Don't believe me? Here is a link to my youtube!