Never Good Enough!

I feel like shit. It seems I can never do anything right. I can't get a job, I can't please my family and/or friends, and I can't even pleasure my fiance. I hate times like this. I feel worthless. Like a waste of air and skin. I can never truly be myself either. No matter what, I will always be a FEMALE. I hate it. There is nothing I can do that will ever truly change it either. I will never be a "Real" man. It just sucks. If there really is a god and he never makes mistakes, why are there so many others out there like me? It doesn't make sense. I mean, why would he want his children to go through such pain and hurt and utter despair? It just doesnt make sense. Maybe "HE" really is just a figment of our imaginations. Or maybe I'm just upset and looking for someone to blame. Either way, It's just not right....