What's In A Name?

Well, I finally figured out a name. I don't care what my family says. It's not their choice what my name is. They had their say once, and frankly now that time is up. I chose a name that I think suits me pretty well.  I chose the name Aiden Justice Campbell. I will give you all a little info on meanings and origins of the names...

Name: Aiden Origin: Gaelic Meaning: Little Fire
Name: Justice Origin: Latin Meaning: Righteous, just, fair
Name: Campbell Origin:Gaelic Meaning: Wry Mouth...I chose this as a surname because it is a family name, it shows my Scottish heritage

Not much I can tell you other than that. Although I do feel good now that I have finally settled on a name. Now I can truly say I know who I am.

I am Aiden Justice Campbell. I am a 24 year old Androgyne from Glendale, AZ who is learning to play guitar and enjoy life. If you don't like it, don't let the door hit you in the ass on your way out!

Transitioning

I may have figured out what I want to do as far as transitioning. First things first, I need to lose weight before I try to do anything else. Then I work on being actually diagnosed as transgender. Then it's a matter of getting a breast reduction. After that, I work on getting a hysterectomy and getting on testosterone. But that also depends on if I am fertile or not. If I am fertile, then I will try to have a child first, or at least harvest my eggs. After getting on T, I will get what is called a clitoral release. (Look that up on wikipedia if you don't know what it is.) After that, I will be happy. Or at least happier. I will be physically what I feel I am anyway...Androgynous.

The Name Game

I'm still at a standstill when it comes to my name. I want something that is androgynous, like me. I want to reflect my heritage.  But I know if I use the surname I want to, my parents will be unhappy. But it is still a family name, so I don't see why. There are plenty with my given surname, so it's not like I'm the last. I don't know what to do. I'm stuck between 2 choices. Should I be Andrea Campbell Luttge or Aiden James Campbell? I like both names. Aiden shows my scottish heritage more, but Andrea would keep my family happy. *sigh* I don't know. If i choose Andrea, I can go by Andy, which would be easier for my family and friends to adapt to. But on the other hand, Aiden works too. And I could go by A.J., which is unisex as well. *frowns* I just don't know. Any ideas, anyone?

Changes

As I sit here listening to Trans-Siberian Orchestra, I cant help but remember this time last year. It was then that I first came out as transgender. Now I look back at how life has and hasn't changed for me. In many ways, things haven't really changed. The only difference is what people call me. And to some extent how they treat me. Now sometimes people call me male/he/him. And for the most part my friends/family call me Andy. Lol, my brother refers to me as his "Brosis". I love it, though. I will admit I have changed some things about my appearance since coming out. For example, my hair is now in a mohawk. I rarely ever wear makeup, but then it's not like I wore it that often even before coming out. I rarely wear a bra, but then again its hard to find ones that fit me anyway. (Damn boobs!) But for the most part, things are the same as ever. I don't know whether that is good or bad, though. I will leave that to be decided later...

I am me.

I think I may have figured out part of the puzzle. I am what is called Androgynous. I am neither male nor female, but a ccombination of the two. Im still not 100% on the name just yet, but at least I have figured out what gender (or lack of) I am. I think Andy would probably still be the easiest name for everyone, but Aiden suits me too. Dont even get me started on middle names, lol. So for now, I am Aiden Campbell. I am a 24 year old Androgyne from Glendale, AZ who is learning to play guitar, be themself and appreciate life. Thats all I can figure out at the moment. But it's a start.

Who Am I?

My life is a mess. Mostly because I cant figure out who I am. Sometimes I'm masculine. Sometimes I'm feminine. Sometimes I'm neither. I can't decide on a name. Sometimes I'm Annie. Sometimes I'm Andy. Sometimes I'm Aiden. I just cant figure myself out. I have wondered many a time what it is like to be male. But does that alone make me transgender? Or do non-trans people wonder that too? *sighs* I just don't know. Sometimes I think I'm Androgynous. Or am I just a masculine female. Or maybe a feminine male trapped in a woman's body. I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever know who I truly am. Is this just a phase? I don't think so. I have never truly fit into any neat little boxes. Not since I was a small child. I am a unique mix of things. I do know one thing for sure. I will never be happy until I figure this out.