T Time!

I have been using an over the counter Testosterone cream I bought from Hi-Health for a little over a month. So far it seems to be working. My voice is deepening, my Adam's apple is growing, & I am getting more facial hair. I have noticed some side effects, though. My throat hurts and I have dry mouth alot, mainly from my vocal cords thickening and whatnot. I have noticed a little more hair in my sideburns area. Its like peach fuzz though, so it's hard to see. Anyway, that's all for now. Please enjoy this recent pic! And a link to said cream!

Infertility

I wish people would understand how much it hurts to be infertile. It hurts that they rub their fertility(kids) in my face. And to make matters worse, my mom keeps complaining about not having grandkids....WTF?! COMPLAIN TO MY BROTHER, NOT ME. HE'S THE ONE WHO GOT A VASECTOMY! IT'S NOT MY FAULT I'M INFERTILE!

Never Good Enough!

I feel like shit. It seems I can never do anything right. I can't get a job, I can't please my family and/or friends, and I can't even pleasure my fiance. I hate times like this. I feel worthless. Like a waste of air and skin. I can never truly be myself either. No matter what, I will always be a FEMALE. I hate it. There is nothing I can do that will ever truly change it either. I will never be a "Real" man. It just sucks. If there really is a god and he never makes mistakes, why are there so many others out there like me? It doesn't make sense. I mean, why would he want his children to go through such pain and hurt and utter despair? It just doesnt make sense. Maybe "HE" really is just a figment of our imaginations. Or maybe I'm just upset and looking for someone to blame. Either way, It's just not right....

Fanfiction

I have been writing a fanfiction about one of my favorite gay musicians and a transman. If you must know, said musician is Adam Lambert. Yes, I am a Glambert! I am also planning on writing a few other fanfics, also about musicians. If you like erotic fanfiction, feel free to check it out!

Passing as male!

Twice in the past 2 days I have been referred to with male pronouns. It made me feel awesome. Keep in mind how I dress though. I wear ripped jeans, a studded skull belt, chain wallet, binder, packer, baseball caps, and a cuff watch most times. The past 2 days I also wore a sleeveless tee. So that might have contributed to my passing. But last night when I took my dog to a free housebreaking seminar at petco, a guy (also named Andy, ironically) referred to me as "He/Him" a few times. And today, at DES, while trying to get my food stamps straightened out, A lady referred to me as "Him" to her son. It made me feel really good. Just thought I would share that with you guys.

P.S. What makes this more amazing is I have a somewhat high voice naturally. Don't believe me? Here is a link to my youtube!

Rant about Jobs

So, I've been trying to get a job. No dice. I tried applying at Deseret Industries, and they flat out told me they werent hiring, after giving me an interview. WTF?! If youre not hiring, dont interview people! It gives them the wrong impression! What kind of world are we living in here? I mean, arent we supposed to help one another? Isn't that what GOD tells us to do? Yeah, I'm bringing Him into this. Because a life without him, simply put, would be more boring and too friggin easy. I mean yeah, I get that this is supposed to be "a test", but sheesh! I think I have passed already so stop friggin testing me and give me my reward already! URRGH!

ChipIn

I created a new ChipIn account. I would appreciate any and all donations to my transition!

Natural Transitioning

Hey all. Sorry it's been so long since I posted a blog. And I will say in advance it will probably be a short one too. I have decided to talk to my doctor about starting a process called "Natural Transitioning" (info can be found on tqnation.com) It basically means I will be taking supplements and changing my diet to boost testorone levels naturally. Along with that, I will also be working out and doing exercises that will help me get a more masculine physique. The reason I have decided to do this is because, lets be honest here. Testosterone can be expensive, especially without insurance. And if I can boost my hormone levels naturally, why not do it?